Absense

well, i've been reading many other peoples' blogs. and apparently, they are filled with emotional and coherent thought. Happiness and frustration is documented in their blog. I thought "why isn't mine normal?" and it's true; it's the language of a lunatic, makes no sense and says nothing. So today I will write a normal entry. (try to).

Today I was on the phone with the health care agency. AND with a college. However, I hung up on the girl when she said "graduate admissions" I hung up because I was too scared & didn't know what I was going to say. Then, I called back but it was busy.

then I ignored my downstairs neighbor because he has been rude and didn't return my urgent phone messages. Then, I felt dizzy and I lay down in my bed and felt like I might faint. Well, blood was rudhing to my head and face at the store when I stood up quickly. I had to grab hold of the bed post which was for sale. Then I took a vitamin (2) and ate a peach. (nectarine).

Then, I talked to my friend and am gonna go over to her house tomorrow. Then, I talked to my other friend while she was riding on a bus. We talked about alot of things that are keeping us alive.

Also, earlier in the day I hallucinated that I saw a parking ticket on my car. ACTUALLY: I hallucinated the parking ticket. A few moments of fear, then acceptance. There goes another $15 bucks. Then I saw that it was just the reflection of the sun in the shape of a parking ticket. Then, I made nachos which were not bad. (really good) Then I saw Phinehas on the street but he didn't see me. (I said hi though).

Then I thought about J.G who has Christian Rock music playing on her myspace profile. Then I thought about France. (like every day) and the beautiful woman from Arizona who met her frenchie husband and now writes Francophile novels in coffeshoppes in the South of France. "Living the dream".

I also thought about how an Arab woman named "fatima" applied to a billion jobs in France and nothing. Then she changed the name on the resume to "Christine" and was called in for an interview.

Someone was recently at a Minnesota wedding where the couple had their first kiss on the altar. Make sense? Yeah, apparently it's that book "I kissed dating goodbye" which says that when you meet your future husband, God just tells you it's him and you get married. The premise is that in every relationship we have, a piece of our heart is removed so that by the time we meet our future hubbies, we have nothing left in our heart. So consoling. The secret here is: My mom bought me this book (Bless her heart). but what if your future husband doesn't believe in God and thinks you are a psycho?

Ok, thanks for reading and come again!
xo