Absense

Brain is really slipping. Today I couldn't for my life spell "Substitute" all my brain was signalling to me was that substitute seemed pretty similar to 'prostitute' or 'destitute'. This is my thought process at a place of learning for children. So I simply wrote "Sub" obviously having erased 'stitute' with a No. 2 pencil. It was a toss-up between that and "Subsitute" as in like, subsidize.

No cute guys anywhere. I miss my foreign lover. Miss having europeans falling over me drunk on bottles of rum.

Dreamed of a cock-between-my-legs, O damned light-of-day -- virginia woolf

Feel I may fall asleep in car. Joyous sense of purpose happening this morning rising at 6:45. So sweet I could cry. I wish I was exagerrating. I couldn't remember the word "Apron." Losing my pebbles. I once had more-than-a-deck-of-cards.