Absense

kathligne. Love her.

I was the 2nd cleverest girl in the class and we were such good pals, we were in the same groups for everything, always together in and out of school. We were the class geeks. Around the age of 10 I became horribly aware of this pejorative label and i wanted out of the Kathleen and Emily club. I was ashamed to be a geek. I wanted to befriend the cool girls. I have an image in my memory of Emily sitting by herself in the playground while i looked on from my new group. Daaaaammmmn i was cruel. Ever since then i think ive been trying to shed the geeky label, trying to be a cool girl. My high school friends were all bright too, our group was kind of inbetween, cool but swats. We hated the swatty label and we rebelled, but we all got high grades. Becoming aware of this...hold on..is that a good looking fella i can see checkin for books overthere?? i can only see half of him so i cant tell yet..it could just be..theres a good few around..i spotted one last night in the line to get into a talk..one o'those wohh who's he?? moments. I took my seat in the hall and began to scan for him. I couldnt see him so gave up and realised he was right in front of me, what are the chances hey, and i chose my seat myself when i booked the ticket. It was fated. He disappeared out the door at the end without so much as looking round...